I remember that as a little girl I would pass away hours thinking about what my life would be like when I grew up. I don't remember much about those dreams except that I loved babies. Oh,and I dreamed about Elvis Presley and the Beatles.I remember God always being present in my life. Early on in my forming someone made sure that I heard the stories about Moses, David, Daniel, Ruth, Rahab, and Hannah. I remember lots of fear and wondering about being loved. My family was not a healthy one. I remember lots of schools and never feeling like I belonged. The list is long, but then again, my life could have been so much worse. I hear lots of stories that are true and tragic. I am grateful that I am not as crazy as I could be.
The last two years of my life have been crappy, but they could have been worse. I have not been beaten, raped, or had to run for my life. I have been lied to and deceived. I have compromised my own integrity and honesty. Everyday I get up, ask God to forgive me, hold up my head and move on through the day.
I have made myself crazy trying to control something that I cannot, no matter how hard I try. I did not know for so long the alcoholism and addictions are a family disease. I did not understand for so long that help has always been just a heartbeat away. All I had to do was acknowledge that I could not run my own life and the lives of those around me. I am a co-dependent person who has come to terms with my defects and have humbly admitted to God that I am incapable of fixing anything. Have you ever tried to fix your own life using your own tools? Have you ever tried to fix an addict? Impossible! Billy is back in Lubbock. He has had a serious relapse.
I surrender to God. "Let go and let God." I have heard that phrase for a very long time, and it never connected in my head and heart until recently. Peace, oh what sweet peace comes with the surrender. Just today is all I have to contend with. Who knows if I will be here tomorrow?
New News
Baby Hudson is here! Our new addition to the family is here. Hudson Riley was born the 10th of May. He weighed in at 8 pounds and 3 ounces and was 21 inches long.
Griselda and Ishmael
Last Tuesday, the 27th of May, Griselda and Ishmael gave their lives to Jesus. They are the son and daughter-in-law of Georgina and Salvador. They have been a part of the home group that met in Malcolm and Tammy's house and now meets in their house.
Día De Los Niños
April the 30th is "Day of the Child." Our church fmily participated in this event with lots of toys in the town of La Union. Here are a few pictures of the evening.
Free Medical Clinic
The 12th through the 16th of May a free medical clinic was provided by a group of people from Abilene, Texas. The church in Lazaro Cardenas hosted the event ... but actually Malcolm and Tammy Pointon organized the affair. Three doctors, nurses, and a host of other people worked long, long hours. If my memory serves correctly, I think they saw around 500 people in 5 days. They were able to pray with lots of folks, and the seed of the gospel has been sown in this small pueblo of Los LLanos. One señora that came is in 107 years old. I hope to have pictures soon.
